1st Blog Entry
When I was younger, my brother was always different (Not necessarily in a bad way) he had a horrible temper and 8 out of 10 times he would lash out and hurt me. My mum and dad took him to lots of different people and we were always told that he was a naughty boy with anger issues, it only came into light during February 2012 that he may have Asperger's Syndrome (High functioning Autism). This was confirmed in November 2012 and as soon as that happened everything changed. I didn't know what to do anymore, it was like living with a completely different person, the previous 13 years didn't matter anymore and I became very scared and withdrawn. I no longer knew how to act around him anymore, we were constantly walking on eggshells because the slightest thing could set him off.
He is also very violent towards Mum and Grannie and I began to worry, I was (and still am) losing sleep over this. I often get angry and snap at the wrong people, innocent people who have never done anything wrong to me and I feel like I can't control it all because no one really understands. They can give their views on it because they have no idea because they aren't experiencing it themselves, they don't actually have any right to comment.
We can get through this if we stick together and find someone who knows what they are talking about. I see lots of professionals and they all give their opinion and tell me what to do because they think they are helping but they often can't see the reason behind why I do some of the things that I do but I know why and I also know that I am doing it right because if you follow your instincts and do what you think you should, you end up feeling safer in the long run as you have pleased yourself not others. That is the best thing you can do.